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Oct. 30th, 2007 08:29 pmI don't feel like doing anything, I don't see why anyone would feel like doing anything. When I read about all the interesting things people are up to, I feel repelled and defective all at once. Parties, events, trips, dinners, museums... I care, but I don't. I'm envious of people who enjoy these things. Same goes for exercise, projects, and interpersonal relationships.
This has been building up lately, triggered by the change in seasons, as well as a few disappointing experiences. This week's high-stakes meetings took the last bit of energy from my mind. Psychologically, I am a wet noodle.
...
I'm already starting to feel fine again. I'm starting to wonder what my problem is, and why I haven't started working on the Abu rebuild. I'm hungry, I feel like putting on some music, and this room could use some straightening up. Tomorrow evening will be fun.
I'm no stranger to depression, but this is definitely a new trick. The pattern has a clear 24-hour cycle, with a dip in the late afternoon and a rise at night. What the HELL, brain?
This has been building up lately, triggered by the change in seasons, as well as a few disappointing experiences. This week's high-stakes meetings took the last bit of energy from my mind. Psychologically, I am a wet noodle.
...
I'm already starting to feel fine again. I'm starting to wonder what my problem is, and why I haven't started working on the Abu rebuild. I'm hungry, I feel like putting on some music, and this room could use some straightening up. Tomorrow evening will be fun.
I'm no stranger to depression, but this is definitely a new trick. The pattern has a clear 24-hour cycle, with a dip in the late afternoon and a rise at night. What the HELL, brain?
