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[opabinia]

I don't feel like doing anything, I don't see why anyone would feel like doing anything. When I read about all the interesting things people are up to, I feel repelled and defective all at once. Parties, events, trips, dinners, museums... I care, but I don't. I'm envious of people who enjoy these things. Same goes for exercise, projects, and interpersonal relationships.

This has been building up lately, triggered by the change in seasons, as well as a few disappointing experiences. This week's high-stakes meetings took the last bit of energy from my mind. Psychologically, I am a wet noodle.

...

I'm already starting to feel fine again. I'm starting to wonder what my problem is, and why I haven't started working on the Abu rebuild. I'm hungry, I feel like putting on some music, and this room could use some straightening up. Tomorrow evening will be fun.

I'm no stranger to depression, but this is definitely a new trick. The pattern has a clear 24-hour cycle, with a dip in the late afternoon and a rise at night. What the HELL, brain?

Comments

[mangokat.livejournal.com]

Emotion is no foe to your crafty logic!

Anyway, we should hang out. I don't think I'll have a weekend off until January though...

[bottleimp.livejournal.com]

"Psychologically, I am a wet noodle."

Give me money.

[lepidosiren.livejournal.com]

I'm feeling better!

[xenoglaux]

Then go buy a foam roller.

[bottleimp.livejournal.com]

Told you so!

How much did you send me?

[morbidiqua.livejournal.com]

Yeah I hear you on that one. At least you have a dip you can get out of. I definitely have a week long pattern. It is terrible on Monday... then I am generally better by Thursday. But Mondays suck overall.